Turning Points

It wasn’t until around the 100 day mark of the #makingarteveryday challenge that I really started to feel comfortable drawing digitally and things started to get fun. Until this point, a lot of the images were just me copying existing pieces for practice and technical understanding, which is why I didn’t share any of the pieces online.

Around the 100 day mark I hit a turning point of sorts. Daily practice was starting to pay off and I’d gotten comfortable with using ProCreate, so I could just create drawings without thinking about it and focus entirely on the creative process. Habit at this stage also kicked in to help me overcome resistance and sitting down daily to draw became fun and fairly easy instead of a chore.

Around this time I also started getting creative and creating my own pieces again. I switched things up, I limited my colour palette, I started experimenting a lot more with the given themes and approaching them more playfully. Drawing started to feel fun again.

The past few years have been a dry spell for me in terms of personal creative work. For years I’ve suffered debilitating chronic fatigue, which it turns out were caused by my dental retainers. Outwardly I functioned pretty well, but on the inside I was dying and losing the energy for all the things I used to love. My creativity shriveled into non-existence. My work life tanked. All my tests came up beautifully, on paper I was healthy as could be. Doctors kept trying to refer me to a psychiatrist, but I had the persistent gut feeling that the problem was rooted in my body. I had my retainers removed in November while traveling in Thailand and things have been drastically and steadily improving ever since. The nightmare is over.

The #makingarteveryday challenge has helped me regain the creative joy I thought I’d lost during those years and for that I am incredibly thankful. I am fulfilling my life-long yearning to create everyday, and it has helped me unlock the new medium of digital art, making it so much easier to create while traveling. This is also a new string to my bow, as I can now also offer digital illustration for work as well. 

Building a daily habit of doing something you love is life-changing and healing. For years though, I didn’t even have that energy to build that habit because my body needed healing first. Sometimes the blocks are not just in your head. And sometimes they literally are.

Getting my braces out in November was the first turning point. Day 100 of the #makingarteveryday challenge was the second. Trial and error and finally trusting myself and my body finally led to the first, persistence and daily work made the second one possible.

Thank you to @lisabardot for creating a life-changing creative challenge at exactly the right time for me. And thank you to my Dad and boyfriend for the awesome art toy and daily travel companion that is my iPad Pro and to the creators of the @procreateapp for the app that is so beautifully designed with the artist in mind. To my boyfriend who was always there for me when I couldn‘t be. And to @kkalp, whose newsletter saved my life.

#makingarteveryday Day 101 – Cutting Board

The image at the top of this post was one of the first images where I started experimenting with this new illustration style and really pushed into the fun zone with digital drawing.

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